Ramblings of a Waffle

Let's set the scene:

Setting: Upstairs Bedroom

Time: 3:59 on Sunday

Song: Take On Me with Ashley Johnson from The Last of Us Part II game

Rearranging the bedroom to fit my new yoga mat and my weights.  Nothing too spectacular with the weights, just two of the 5 lbs but it's a start.  Ever since I could remember I have tried to lose weight.  Would do fine for a few days then no changing on the new diet and staying with the schedule I would gain the weight right back on.  So I thought what's the point.  

Well the new year of 2025 is upon us so let's try it again.  This time, we are just going to do yoga and 5 lbs dumbells and whenever I feel like it.  Got vids to watch to help out so I go at my own pace.

So why the "Ramblings of a Waffle?"

Took a break from rearranging the bedroom and the song Take On Me comes on.  Love Ashley Johnson's voice, love her character in The Last of Us and just love her as a human being.  So of course, I take a breather from cleaning and lay back on my bed with my Sprite.  Finally got the bed all cleaned up with new sheets and comforter (a huge improvement on my part...hey I may be 33 but I'm just NOW acting like an adult.....like I said, improvement). Was just staring at the ceiling listening away while it rains outside.

Now my ceiling is nothing to mention truly.  It's just a ceiling....white....with a speckle drywall.  Not much.  But in the speckle.....I saw the answer to the universe!

Yea right.

But wouldn't that have been perfect!  But no, no answers of the universe.  But an interesting concept that had me grapping my tablet and keyboard.

In some of the speckles, there are some "bumbs" along the ceiling followed by some smooth edges.  It's not that big of a room so not that huge of a ceiling.  But as I was staring at the ceiling and was looking at the rough edges of the drywall, it got me thinking.....are you a stare at one spot person, or does your eyes roam?

When I'm thinking of really nothing....what am I going to eat? i should get the laundry done. bathroom could use a good over. whenever am I going to get to that game I just bought? am I ever going to get noticed on YouTube? am I ever going to find The One that I will love and that will love me back? am I proud of myself? did I have too much coffee?  what am i going to eat?

You know....questions that everyone has.

And as I was staring at my ceiling it made me realize...no.  Not everyone thinks like this.  Some can just empty their minds and just stare at one point of the ceiling and just take everything in as is.  Not a worry, not a care, just listen and stare.....at ONE point of the ceiling.

You know...like a psycopath.

(Just kidding by the way)

As for me....I'm a roamer.  My eyes just can't seem to stop moving around.  I have stared at this ceiling so many times in the past 10 years I know what it looks like.  I could close my eyes and tell you exactly what it looks like, so there is really nothing new except maybe a few spider webs (which I need to take care of...one sec......................back.)  But my eyes seem to want to roam around the whole white nothing.  Just look and look and I realize I'm not just roaming at the ceiling.  I'm roaming around my whole brain thinking from one idea to the next....seeing the big picture of things, and using the white blah ceiling as my corkboard.  Pinning all of my worries, my ideas, my deep dark thoughts that I will not be putting on this here PG-13 blog.

But it got me thinking of how we truly think.   Are you a stare at one point of the ceiling (only think of one thing at a time, not realizing what other things could be helping out for your not eyeing it...just that one spot); or are you are a roamer (trying to see the big picture of everything...putting a puzzle piece together so looking at all options).

To be honest....there is not right answer.  But there needs to be an answer.  Your answer.  Which fits you best?  Does it work for you?  Can you change?  Can you slow down? Speed up? What needs to change to fix the problem? 

Eyes on straight....or roam around?

I believe I have decided.

Tacos.  Tacos is what I'll eat